IM LAUGHING SO FUCKING HARD
someone should make a mixtape filled with some of the most bizarre genres on here and give it to their crush with no context
Not gonna lie, some of the deep stuff seems pretty cool
But the Level 4/5 boundary is where it starts to go from good music to weird
Fuckin’ a… How did I fall into like… The high levels? Like… Level 5 and up ? I hung out with this one guy too long… He has meth induced schizophrenia and he talks to the radio. I sat with him one night and when I focused… I heard it.
I’ve been clean for 2 weeks y’all. It was really hard to take a step forward, but since doing so, I haven’t had a single thought of suicide, I haven’t stayed awake for 3 nights straight afraid of where I was located and the people there, nor have I felt the desperation that always crept up on my way down. I’m afraid of the person I started to become, cold and heartless and full of hate… She wasn’t me. I like me too much to allow my self growth to continue to stay stagnant. I’m still homeless, but I’m no longer hopeless!
I don’t think people realise how hard it is to re-discover the person you were before depression or even try to remember your own personality
and if you’ve had depression since early childhood you don’t even know if you have your own personality
you didn’t have time to be a person before depression
and it’s scary having no idea who you are
I literally died, but therapy and routine revived me. With depression, I became a phoenix. From the ashes of my sadness, anger, and apathy rose a new girl… Woman each time it hit, and I continue to grow and change and become stronger with it.
(Source: pixie-grotto, via ifthatswhatyoureinto)
Update: had a mysterious fever that peaked at 102 last night. Was hallucinating/ screaming/ speaking in tongues. They put oxygen on, slept like a freakin baby.
So, I got contacts yesterday.